Thursday, March 17, 2005

Week 11 2005: One Fucked Up Week

Right, this post will cause great embarrasment to me about 20 hours along the line but I feel like I have to explain what's been going on this week in full. Many people have noticed me looking sad, depressed and incredibly angry so for those people here are the reasons.

This whole thing starts with a request. Ali asked me to add a trio of links to her blog for her. Following that we started chatting regularly over MSN. Well things went along as usual in my life until one Sunday. Sunday March 13th. Ali wrote on her blog that she was now (unofficially) single. Well things went down the pan from there. I started talking about her to Brittney over at dA and I came up with a plan. Brittney wrote an email to Ali, an email I think is important to our story so it must be posted here.

I am a friend of Francis's... If he's talked about me at all, I'm not sure, I'm the deranged southern girl in the States that goes by Brittney. This is just gonna be a brain-dump for me so bare with it,
But anyways...
I am aware of that you have broken up with Dave, one of Francis's best mates. I'm not a stalker or anything, he just tells me all and I have heard about you so much that I feel like I know you as good as I know him. Stay calm, it's been nothing but good things that I've heard. Francis is very secretive and cautionary about what he does and says about love, this is sometimes one of his best qualities, because he's been hurt so many times. But something he's not secretive about is his feelings towards you. If you haven't read any of his journals, read: "A Depressing View" and "Inspiration" also read the comments. He's mad about you and there's no use denying it. I know that since you've just broken up with someone, a huge chunk of your life is missing at the moment and it's going to take time for it all to heal from Dave. I'm a girl, I understand that completely. I'm the single best friend type with my crew so I know/see/experience/whatever you're going through and I completely understand that. Just when you think that you can handle another relationship, give Francis the look-up. You at least owe him that. Trust me, Ali, you won't be disappointed.
xoxo-brit

Now things got complicated after that. A few hours before that email was sent Ali posted to her blog that she was back together with Dave. I read this post the next day about 20 minutes before the mail was found by Ali. Cue panic mode. Over the course of the day I'd been thinking about it a bit and realised I was making a mistake. In definate panic I turned to the only person who could get me out of this mess. I actually went as far as asking Ifrit to hack into Ali's inbox and delete the mail. He refused to do it on 'emotional grounds'. With nowhere to turn and definately nowhere to run I eventually had to face the music. It didn't go well and as a result left for school today filled with a combination of fear and depression. The depression was a side effect fo rejection and the fear was that Dave will have been told of the previous day's events. This was a fear proved when Dave preceeded (or appeared to anyway) to make my day difficult. Today I realised something important heading out of history, Dave Stewart has a very punchable face. So come to maths period 4 I was angry. I wrote a journal post on dA which changed perspective as it went along. I had one line in mind as I neared the end, Fuck you and fuck your friendship. However when I reached the end and the space reserved for that line I just couldn't use it. If I had used it I would be regretting it a lot now. So get home (still angry at Dave, smug bastard), get online and chat to Ali. Sort everything out, restore friendship and the world sleeps in peace again.

Like I said, one fucked up week but not one I'm gonna forget in a hurry. Not one I want to forget either.

2 comments:

NJ said...

He might. Don't know though.

NJ said...

Let him talk.

But if he's gonna punch me then tell him to avoid the face.